Thursday, January 17, 2008


January 2008

Holy crap where do I start?

I am just going to ramble off all the things that happened. My key board doesn't always worked right and it leaves off letters, so there may be lots of typos.

First the huge things. Andrew now 16 got his girlfriend who is 19, pregnant this year and she delivered a girl. They put her up for adoption and Peter's youngest brother's wife's sister adopted her. Rebecca, my sister in law and her sister are well to do. In fact their father is a billionaire!! So this little girl will live a priveledged life. The adoptive parents have been giving Heather and Andrew lots of gifts and cash. Not goo for a stoner boy.
He smokes pot a lot, is still self centered, angry, disrespectful and his mom as she puts it, is "fucking sick and tired of him." Andrew calls her a fucking cunt whore bitch blah blah blah. His mom and her husband recently went on a company paid cruise and she asked us to watch Andrew p here. Peter told her that he would have to ask me and that we are a family. He scored points big time there. I could hear her unhappiness and screaming in the background. I told Peter, you might as well tell her now, no he doesn't respect his mother or father and has even less respect for me. I am not babysitting him on my winter break.

Andrew says he is moving out with his brother who is now moving back into the ghetto apartments he used to live in with the what's her face, the b word. Jared has been partying it up and not paying his bills. H was off of work forseveral weeks for an alleged shoulder injury. I think he was just looking to get disability so he didn't have to work. he did get his job back but they have never given him back the hours he used to work. So now he has two jobs. Him and Andrew just got a job together at a BBQ place. We will just have to wait and see how that goes.

We were unable to get our house refinanced and the current lender would not lower the interest rate any lower than 8.35% or 8.85%. The payments was near $3800+ a month. So we are giving them the finger and just got approved for a new home loan yesterday. We went out house shopping during my winter break and found a house we could agree on. It is nothing fancy like what we had, but it is huge. 2700 sq feet, 5 bedroom, 3 bath, 3 car garage. Aiden loves it because it is a "stair house". We will now be living in Plumas Lake and there is absolutely no shopping there so I will have to drive into Yuba City, Marysville or Roseville to shop. Our new house paymentwill be less than $2000 a month. Big difference.

Speaking of Aiden, he is doing well. He has been a lot healthier this year. Knock on wood. I am going to put him in a new preschool and we are both excited about that. We will miss the old school their teachers and the director. She has allowed me to be so flexible as to when I want to bring him in or take him out. I am going to use them still for drop in days when I have to study for tests. I have been told several times that Aidens speaks very well and is an articulate little boy. He is very imaginative and makes up all kinds of stories.

School starts next week. I should be applying for the LVN program, but I have been too caught up in the house thing. I haven't even bought supplies or my text books yet and I go to school on Tuesday. I am taking intermediate algebra, biology and aerobics this semester and I am going three days a week instead of two. I think I will go ahead and contact my highschool today to see how to order my transcript. I am not too worried about my past record any more as I think my grades should prove I am a changed woman. I celebrated one year sobriety in Nov of last year and I am still going strong. No drugs and no alcohol. That has transformed my relationship with Peter into something really wonderful.

I nearly left him this year over the whole sex thing and well it still hasn't improved but my attitude towards him has changed. It's like we are so much closer now and united in the same goals and path. I feel a connection to him like never before and I think nearly leaving him made me realize just how good we are together. I would hate to think of starting all over dating and all that crap. Who has the energy to all that?

I am a myspace junkie now. Most of the friends on their are family and unfortunately I got into it with my cousins wife the other day. She is no longer friends with another cousins wife and she trash mouthed her to me which I specifically asked both of them not to do. So I am cutting her out of my life completely. My cousin owes my dad tons of money and he is struggling to stay clean and sober. I told his wife that it isn't very supportive to have alcohol around him. (She had her profile pic of her holding up alcohol bottles totally glamorizing it) She yelled back in all caps saying I don't normally drink and it was new years, blah blah blah. Then she went into the whole cathie thing and how she thought we talked about her behind her back and how cathie cheated on her husband with my cousins brother. I thought woman you have no right to throw stones, you cheated on my cousin and even had the other mans baby, a black man at that. What the fuck does my other cousin have to do with her behavior? umm nothing I wrote her back and told her that she is the only one trashing other people and that my cousin has nothing to do with why I wrote to her. She wrote back but I never opened the email I sent it to trash. I just wasn't goin to allow that woman to get under my skin and I feel good about that. I really wasn't trying to start an argument but it was apparent she is too defensive to be open to constructive criticism.

My dad and his gf are good and my dad just left for his yearly trip to the Mexico. My dad has helped us financially so much the last several years. He gave us another 20 grand to first try to save our house and when that didn't work to buy a new house. We bought a house with a bedroom and full bath downstairs so if something were to happen to his gf he could come live with us.

Closing today. I have to go pack and do school stuff today. Cali girl I have missed you!! I promise I will do a better job checking in.