feel like crying

It is not looking good for us to keep our house. We are working with a mortgage broker who is trying a pecial program thru freddie mac or fannie mae, one of those any way, for people like us that owe more than our house is worth. So far they have rejected each of our loan requests and after this last one money will come out of our pocket. I told Peter let's keep trying. Neither of us want to give up our home. Sure there are nicer ones out these days, even bigger ones that we can afford but we love our house, our neighbors and besides we have spent thousands of dollars on this home and property to make it the way we like it. In order to get out from under it we would have to buy a new home and well you fill in the blanks. I went looking this week over by the water park. There are some beautiful, upscale homes with in walking distance to the water park. 2 stories which Aiden loves and a second master suite on the ground floor for my dad if something should ever happen to Monti. It is nice Peter is open to taking care of my dad like that. Our current home doesn't have an extra bedroom large enought to accomodate my dad with an attached bathroom, like the ones I visited this week. So maybe it would be a godd thing. All I know is I am trying o stay open and positive because this has to be happening for a reason. In the long run it has to be in our best interest. If we move it had better be a good enough home for us to retire in because that will be our last shot!!!

Going's on...broke

We had pretty good weekend. We went to a grand opening of a fire station in West Sac., the Railroad Museum in old Sac and swimming at Peter's friends house. Our neighbors to the left of us, who have a 3 year old boy and a 2 year old girl, went as well, except to swim at our friends house. We took Jared, Andrew and Heather too. It was a long day and Aiden was in heaven with the trains. I certainly don't want to lose the house. We are becoming quite friendly with ourneighbors and Aiden has made some great friends with the kids on our street.

We are broke. Peter paid too much on the credit cards and didn't leave money left for living expenses so we are going to have to borrow from my dad. He has lined up jobs on the side but we won't see any money from that for a while. I offered to work and may need to depending on what the Mortgage guy finds out for us supposedly this week. I am now going to be more active in the bill paying, finance dept. because I do not trust Peter's judgement any longer. It was him that got is in this whole F'n mess in the first place, although he wouldn't agree.

Today I started the South Beach diet. I like my bigger boobs, but I hate my bigger gut and butt. So I am going to give it a whirl. The first two weeks are the hardest so we'll see how disciplined I can be

Global warming

It was 109 yesterday and it is expected to be just as hot today. I was out at 9 am watering and sweating because it was already like in the 90's. Our airconditioning bill is going to be $400 I bet and we are broke broke broke. The effects of the house payment going up hit us hard and Peter, dummy paid well over the minimum due on all our credit cards leavng no money to live on. The entire next pay check goes to the mortgage. So we are broke for 4 weeks. I want to go back to work and he keeps saying no don't worry it will work out. WTF? When is he going to worry.

Have a Happy 4th Folks

We are just doing a small BBQ at our house with my dad, his gf, and her grandson. We are coordinating fire works with our neighbors, who will be home too.

I sure hope we can keep our house. We love where we live and our neighbors are great. We are going to start doing things together with the neighbors to the left of us. We are taking the kids to a grand opening of a firestation in West Sac, then to the train station and then over to Peter's friends house to swim. His friend Sam, his wife Sally and their daughter Taylor were over last weekend, so we were invited up to swim this weekend. I made all cold salads so I didn't have to cook and it gave me the opportunity to talk with Sally and Peter's parents this weekend.

I was really getting into juicy stuff with Harumi but then Peter's dad came in and said it was time to go so we didn't get to finish. I guess uncle solar didn't even tell his dad or Harumi that he was moving to Roseville. Thye told him not to go through with buying the house, so I am sure he doesn't want to hear I told you so from his dad.

This is my Dr.