Aiden got bit by our dog. documented here. He is doing much better today and has had minimal contact with our dog. Our dog has been really timid since the incident yesterday. I think Peter hitting him real good made an impact. Peter has never reprimanded our dog, ever, until yesterday. I am not certain if I believe soley on positive reinforcement training or a little of both. Either way if we keep the dog, we most likely need to consult a trainer.
It turned out to be a quiet weekend. Dad and Monti came over our house after the game and stayed a while. Uncle Solar never came up because he didn't want to sit around the house. Peter suggested all of us going to a movie but I guess he wasn't interested. It was just us on Sunday. Since Aiden went to bed early and slept the whole night thru I took the opportunity to put on a teddy and initiate play time. We "played" and it was nice. Not earth shattering, but nice. Lots of naked snuggling in candle light and I suppose that is what our relationship lacked most was the non-sexual physical intimacy. He called me and thanked me today which was nice. See he is making an effort and I certainly appreciate it because I have been making a huge effort to make him happy too.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Friday, April 27, 2007
I think I will call her Auntie Xanax now
Uncle Solar is probably bringing Seiji up tomorrow. Peter called and asked him if he could make it up Sat and not Sunday. Auntie prozac is being a witch again. Uncle Solar has to go to Austria for three weeks for work. Miss anxiety med addict is threating to take Seiji out of state for good, so he is all freaked out. When she had mentioned to me in our kitchen, that there is nothing for her now in Sacto., and that she felt like moving, I reminded her that she shares custody and how sad it would be for Seiji to be away from his father and family. She said oh yeah it would be sad but I know damn well she doesn't give a shit and some how thinks that having full custody of Seiji would be better for him. This is coming from a woman who got fired from her work because she always called in sick from her depression. This is a woman who admitted to me just weeks ago that on weekends she does not have Seiji she sleeps the entire weekend. This is a woman who is on disability, yet clams she is the sole provider for him. This is a woman who takes her son to full time daycare 5 days a week, even though she is at home all day now. This is a woman who I have witnessed not being able to get out of bed and making it so uncle Solar has to take care of their son all by himself on weekends. Ohh that woman makes us all so mad. I think she purposely does stuff just to piss uncle Solar off because she has no life.
Insurance scam
I did a insurance quote thing online the other day. Before I even finished, an insurance agent called and we scheduled an appt. I got tired of waiting for our broker to do his job. She was with Mega health and life and the NASE, National Assoc for the self-employed. We thought it was a good deal. She wrote all the stuff out on paper instead of going over the actual policy. Clue number one, I failed to head. It appeared, based on her discription, to be a good plan for all of us. We could tailor it to fit our needs. After she left , I looked at the actual policy and for every service it says things like, will pay 70% up to and then they put a tiny cap on it. For example, they will pay for an ambulance 70% up to $250. Well Peter and I know damn well that a short stint to the hospital is over a thousand dollars. So, long story short, I am having Peter do a stop pay on the checks and I called her this am and told her to withdraw our application and mail the checks back. Okay I know what you are thinking and yes I learned my lesson.
I have a shit load of homework and I don't feel like doing it today. We bought Aiden a new blow up pool with a slide for this summer's hot weathe and he is dying to try it out. It probably will get warm enough today. I should have had that lady last niht blow it up. Her hot air would have had it up in no time.
I have a shit load of homework and I don't feel like doing it today. We bought Aiden a new blow up pool with a slide for this summer's hot weathe and he is dying to try it out. It probably will get warm enough today. I should have had that lady last niht blow it up. Her hot air would have had it up in no time.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
School, insurance and work ramblings
Since my reading teacher takes the higher two of the three finals, she knocked off my 1st mock final grade when filling out grade sheets. I am getting 98% in the class. Here is hoping I do much better on the next 2 finals. One of which is on Thursday but we can reference the reading material and it is not an essay. We are only required to write a thesis statement and a summary of the major details. It sounds a lot easier than it is, but I did well on the last assign., so I am hopeful.
I filled out one of those online insurance quotes and received a call from an insurance agent, before I was even done looking. She is going to come out tomorrow. I want to find out what can be done for us directly with an insurance co., as opposed to dealing with our broker. Our broker is nice and all but I believe he is too busy to be of the best service to us. She will come tomorrow after Peter gets home from work.
Peter and Aiden's insurance didn't get cancelled by the way. Our checks are in the mail, no really, the are.
Still not certain if I need to go back to work. I need to determine exactly how much our mortgage payment is going up per mo. and whether or not we can afford it on Peter's salary alone. If not, then I had better start looking now. And that makes me sad. I want to finish college. It seems like I always start something and then never finish it. Peter was relying on being able to afford it, after his boss comes through and gives him a pay increase. We all know that he can not rely on his boss. Even if his boss said, Peter you are getting a raise and it will be on the next check, that in all reality he wouldn't see it on his check until 6 months later. His ass-hole boss is that way. He is in Bali or the next three weeks anyway. Must be nice.
I filled out one of those online insurance quotes and received a call from an insurance agent, before I was even done looking. She is going to come out tomorrow. I want to find out what can be done for us directly with an insurance co., as opposed to dealing with our broker. Our broker is nice and all but I believe he is too busy to be of the best service to us. She will come tomorrow after Peter gets home from work.
Peter and Aiden's insurance didn't get cancelled by the way. Our checks are in the mail, no really, the are.
Still not certain if I need to go back to work. I need to determine exactly how much our mortgage payment is going up per mo. and whether or not we can afford it on Peter's salary alone. If not, then I had better start looking now. And that makes me sad. I want to finish college. It seems like I always start something and then never finish it. Peter was relying on being able to afford it, after his boss comes through and gives him a pay increase. We all know that he can not rely on his boss. Even if his boss said, Peter you are getting a raise and it will be on the next check, that in all reality he wouldn't see it on his check until 6 months later. His ass-hole boss is that way. He is in Bali or the next three weeks anyway. Must be nice.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Going back to work.
I haven't held a full time permanent job since 2001/2002 or so. I have made attempts here and there in 2002 or 2003 to temp. as an examier but nothing for more than a few months at a time. When I got pregnant then I just gave up working entirely. The goal was to raise our son at home.
Now with the possibility of not obtaining health insurance for myself, I may have to go back to work for the benefits. Peter and Aiden had/have health ins. through Nationwide. Since he hadn't heard from Blue Sheild and they had a deposit check, he went ahead and stopped th automatic deduction for our acct for Nationwide. That was last weekend. Now this weekend he got a mile long denial list from Blue Sheild. Needless to say we freaked. I contacted our broker office ver the weekend and today, so she is going to see if we can get it reinstated with out having to go through the application process. A lot has transpired with Peter's health since he applied with them and based on his current need for blood pressure meds, they would most likely deny him too. If that be the case I will definately have to go back to work. Peter's boss will not provide health insurance.
I know it wouldn't be entirely impossible to hold a job, have a family and go to school but I did not want so much on my plate. I would never see Aiden and I wouldn't do that. So I have been praying. I don't know if I should just buckle up and work to relieve some of Peter's stress and to get bene's for all of us or if I should try to perservere through school. They do have an ROP program in town. You have to go through their CNA prerequ. courses, medical terminology and physiology and anatomy,before you can take the LVN class. They have a few other prereques. as well but the schooling s mostly at night. I know that I can't hold a full time job and do that and take care of my family. It is too much.
Neither Peter nor myself want for me to have to drive to Sac.for work, so at best I imagine I could get a $10 hr receptionist job, in fact there was one listed on the net yesterday where Peter and Aiden go to their dr.'s. It was an 8-5pm job m-f and included bene's. It is just the registration and co-payment office where you sign in before going to your dr. The trouble is that I need Peter to get out some of my old paper work so I can see where I used to work and when. I worked at so many different insurance companies that I can't remember who I worked for and when. Either way I am not available to work until after my last final May 23, 2007. God please help me I don't know what to do?
Now with the possibility of not obtaining health insurance for myself, I may have to go back to work for the benefits. Peter and Aiden had/have health ins. through Nationwide. Since he hadn't heard from Blue Sheild and they had a deposit check, he went ahead and stopped th automatic deduction for our acct for Nationwide. That was last weekend. Now this weekend he got a mile long denial list from Blue Sheild. Needless to say we freaked. I contacted our broker office ver the weekend and today, so she is going to see if we can get it reinstated with out having to go through the application process. A lot has transpired with Peter's health since he applied with them and based on his current need for blood pressure meds, they would most likely deny him too. If that be the case I will definately have to go back to work. Peter's boss will not provide health insurance.
I know it wouldn't be entirely impossible to hold a job, have a family and go to school but I did not want so much on my plate. I would never see Aiden and I wouldn't do that. So I have been praying. I don't know if I should just buckle up and work to relieve some of Peter's stress and to get bene's for all of us or if I should try to perservere through school. They do have an ROP program in town. You have to go through their CNA prerequ. courses, medical terminology and physiology and anatomy,before you can take the LVN class. They have a few other prereques. as well but the schooling s mostly at night. I know that I can't hold a full time job and do that and take care of my family. It is too much.
Neither Peter nor myself want for me to have to drive to Sac.for work, so at best I imagine I could get a $10 hr receptionist job, in fact there was one listed on the net yesterday where Peter and Aiden go to their dr.'s. It was an 8-5pm job m-f and included bene's. It is just the registration and co-payment office where you sign in before going to your dr. The trouble is that I need Peter to get out some of my old paper work so I can see where I used to work and when. I worked at so many different insurance companies that I can't remember who I worked for and when. Either way I am not available to work until after my last final May 23, 2007. God please help me I don't know what to do?
Friday, April 20, 2007
He turned himself in last night.
So we are going to the park today. Yippie. Oh and Aiden's first game is this weekend, not last weekend, like I thought. I will be surprised if he pays attention the whole time. He has no interest in practicing ball at home. Except for leaving his glove off and sitting on the ground to throw the ball back and forth. It is hard because I can't make him leave his glove on or stand up. Gah!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Here is the real story on the suspect.
http://www.kcra.com/news/12498657/detail.html
There were two helicopters flying over the elementary school and vicinity right by our house, all afternoon.
I have not heard word if they caught the bastard.
There were two helicopters flying over the elementary school and vicinity right by our house, all afternoon.
I have not heard word if they caught the bastard.
Finally he returned the call.
Guess I forgot to post that Uncle Solar got cold feet, so the girl never came. Still a call would have been nice. Peter said Uncle Solar was on the pitty pot, so he told him that he had better be grateful for what he has.
Virginia-Tech copy cat threat
Yeah we had a copy cat threat this am at Yuba College. It was not voted by Yuba College to have a campus wide evacuation, but when our math teacher got word that the alleged threat was to happen at our college, he said we could go. There were also concerns that he could go into any of the schools or daycares, so as I was picking Aiden up, so were many other parents. By the time I got to my son's school, the staff had already heard about the threat, but were not able to get a hold of local authorities to see what they should do. Aiden did tell me that the teachers told the children not to go outside. I was going to drive home my usual route but the sherrif's dept had the road blocked with the their cars. So I hurried on home in the other direction. I overheard one parent telling the preschool director that the crazy man lived on our side of town (Yuba city). The notice from the Sherriff dept. that was posted all over campus included the picture of the man and it said that this guy is armed, dangerous, wants to die by cop suicide and that he planned to do this at Yuba College,that he would put the Virginia Tech massacre to shame. He has supposedly been on drugs for several days. I also over heard that he is homeless which is making it difficult for the Sherrif dept to locate him. The source of that info was from the wife of a man who works for the fire dept. So we are at home eating lunch and will take an early nap.
Sometimes our world bites green donkey dongs.
I hear hellicopters from a distance.
Sometimes our world bites green donkey dongs.
I hear hellicopters from a distance.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
WTF?
Just as I expected, I got an F on my mock final and an A on my math test. I am not certain if it was at all a learning experience or if it is a set up for future fuck ups. Either way I expected it and am not happy with it. I will try harder next time. Although I have another writing assignment due on Th and I don't even want to start and tomorrow I move Auntie Marie's stuff out of storage and that will take all day. I have a get one free late assignment in my class so I may use it this time around.
No word yet from uncle solar either. It says his work cell number was disconnected and he is not answering his home phone. There is no recorder for his cell phone. Peter has tried calling for the 4th day. I have sent an email and he has not responded either. Now we are worried. I told him to call his folks to see if he gave them a new work number. It is pretty odd for him to not return a call after this long.
No word yet from uncle solar either. It says his work cell number was disconnected and he is not answering his home phone. There is no recorder for his cell phone. Peter has tried calling for the 4th day. I have sent an email and he has not responded either. Now we are worried. I told him to call his folks to see if he gave them a new work number. It is pretty odd for him to not return a call after this long.
Monday, April 16, 2007
winch, financial shit
They were together exactly one month and she broke up with Jared again. Poor kid. I knew it was going to happen. So now he is all down in the dumps again. Man he just needs to get over her. I am sure that is what people thought about me and my ex. Damn.
Ah and yesterday Peter says to me what do you think about getting married. I said great except that I would lose my tuition assist.
The shit it hitting the fan about our finances too. I told Peter a long time ago not to get an equity loan right after he got the house but he did it any way and bought that expedition. So now we have a huge loan to pay off and the mortgage rate on our loan is going up if we don't refinance. Well the market dropped and the house values went down. Now you guessed it. We owe more than it is worth so no one can help us refinance. We can put some money down to get a little bit better loan but have squat in savings because of those friggin credit cards. So I said sell the expedition and we will have money for the down on a new loan. He won't do it. His idea is that if something should ever happen to him, I will atleast have a new car to drive. I said get rid of the new dodge then. The car payment and insurance payment would cover the extra interest. He just keeps telling me he will work it out but doesn't come up with any new ideas. he keeps calling his mortgage broker guy who says over and over that he can't help. WTF? I told him I didn't want to wait til the last minute. hell I would go back to work to save the house. He won't have me driving to Sac. for a job though and that is where all the workers comp. jobs are. So needless to say I am stressed out.
To top it all off he cancelled his insurance payment for him and Aiden's health ins because the new co still has our deposit ($500.00). He put a stop on the automatic withdrawal that was supposed to come out yesterday. Blue Sheild never gave an acceptance or a denial for Peter and Aiden so he may not have insurance effective today for all I know. Not having medical insurance freaks me out. I have been with out now for what, 4 months? I need to get a mammogram done. Grrr.
Ah and yesterday Peter says to me what do you think about getting married. I said great except that I would lose my tuition assist.
The shit it hitting the fan about our finances too. I told Peter a long time ago not to get an equity loan right after he got the house but he did it any way and bought that expedition. So now we have a huge loan to pay off and the mortgage rate on our loan is going up if we don't refinance. Well the market dropped and the house values went down. Now you guessed it. We owe more than it is worth so no one can help us refinance. We can put some money down to get a little bit better loan but have squat in savings because of those friggin credit cards. So I said sell the expedition and we will have money for the down on a new loan. He won't do it. His idea is that if something should ever happen to him, I will atleast have a new car to drive. I said get rid of the new dodge then. The car payment and insurance payment would cover the extra interest. He just keeps telling me he will work it out but doesn't come up with any new ideas. he keeps calling his mortgage broker guy who says over and over that he can't help. WTF? I told him I didn't want to wait til the last minute. hell I would go back to work to save the house. He won't have me driving to Sac. for a job though and that is where all the workers comp. jobs are. So needless to say I am stressed out.
To top it all off he cancelled his insurance payment for him and Aiden's health ins because the new co still has our deposit ($500.00). He put a stop on the automatic withdrawal that was supposed to come out yesterday. Blue Sheild never gave an acceptance or a denial for Peter and Aiden so he may not have insurance effective today for all I know. Not having medical insurance freaks me out. I have been with out now for what, 4 months? I need to get a mammogram done. Grrr.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Sacto webcam
Caligirl, does this make you want to come home? or atleast visit?
http://www.kcra.com/wxcam/1471817/detail.html
http://www.kcra.com/wxcam/1471817/detail.html
Thursday, April 12, 2007
tests, Forgiveness
I am pretty certain I got a D or an F on my Mock final and an A on my math test. I used to suck at math. It isn't that I am not good a reading, I am bad at retention. I studied for the mock final. I focused on the big picture instead of the details with in each of the groups. Ofcourse, the assignment was to write about the details on one group and it was a group that I did not remember. We were to come up with 3 to 5 examples. I thought I cam up with 3 but after I left and looked at the book two ideas I discussed were part of the same example. So I only came up with 2 and that is either a d or an f by itself, not to mention how horribly written it was. I was at a loss for words really. The topic was boring anyway, The problems and cultural differences in dealing with international business. We were to write about the importance of work and 3 to 5 examples of the differences. After I looked I felt really stupid for not remembering. I was the first one to get up and leave. I didn't want to sit there anymore staring at my paper or the wall. It just wasn't doing any good.
On a different subject matter, I have been reading, "Get Out of That Pit", by Beth Moore, "Straight Talk about God's Deliverence" I have never been a spiritual or religious guru. I have been interested in becoming more spiritual, closer to God and to rely more on God (faith). One of the ways she explains for us to get out of the pit, is to forgive those who did us wrong. You all know my ex shit on me again and again. I have been carrying him around with me, where ever I go, because of this resentment and that is the last thing I want to do. "when I began to see my grudge against people who hurt me only strengthened the grip of my bondage to them."So I have not gotten out of the section yet that explains how to forgive. From what I gathered is that I have to be willing to forgive and God will do the rest. "Forgiveness is not about feeling. It's about willing." "In the power of Jesus, first you will it and soon you'll feel it." Well I listed in my head the wrongs he did and then asked God for willingness to forgive." Not an easy feat. Yesterday I thought about him and I didn't have that tinge of ander attached to it. That was a first. In fact I really didn't feel anything. Today on the other hand, I thought about how this drop dead gorgeous girl came to stay with us right after we married. his brotehr arranged for it because she was touring the world. Well he bent overbackwards to impress this girl. We went up to our time share in Tahoe and he paid for her room (shared with us and separated into two room), meals and show. I was not drinking, he knew I was an alcoholic but went off with that tramp, leaving me bymyself and had a drink with her because he didn't ant her to feel like she was drinking alone. What? What about not drinking with me in support of me? So after that thought I got all pissed off at him again. I have these thoughts weekly and I am so sick and tired of having him tied to me constantly. I want to be done with him for good. I know I am better off with out him and all I ever wanted was for him to acknowledge his wrong doings but he never would. He always insisted that he wasn't a liar and that he did nothing wrong. I confronted him about his behavior with that girl and told him I was jealous. He slammed me up against the wall and told me married couples don't get jealous that there was something wrong with me. I drove to my dads house that night pissed off and went there to drink. Many years later he told me she gave him head that night. I don't know if he said that to piss me off or if it was true. For years he claimed to have never cheated on me. Oh I pray to God for the willingness to forgive him. Forgivenss does not mean that what he did was right, it means that I am giving God the solitary right to vengeance. I also know from somewhere in the bible it says that in order to be forgiven we must forgive and I want forgiveness for my sins. I also want to forgive myself and that I think is the hardest thing to do of all.
Anyway, I love this book. I also want to get the Secret. I think that is what it's called. I do a little bit of what it talks about by seeing myself as a graduate, as a nurse, as a good mother, as clean and sober. as a good wife, etc.
On a different subject matter, I have been reading, "Get Out of That Pit", by Beth Moore, "Straight Talk about God's Deliverence" I have never been a spiritual or religious guru. I have been interested in becoming more spiritual, closer to God and to rely more on God (faith). One of the ways she explains for us to get out of the pit, is to forgive those who did us wrong. You all know my ex shit on me again and again. I have been carrying him around with me, where ever I go, because of this resentment and that is the last thing I want to do. "when I began to see my grudge against people who hurt me only strengthened the grip of my bondage to them."So I have not gotten out of the section yet that explains how to forgive. From what I gathered is that I have to be willing to forgive and God will do the rest. "Forgiveness is not about feeling. It's about willing." "In the power of Jesus, first you will it and soon you'll feel it." Well I listed in my head the wrongs he did and then asked God for willingness to forgive." Not an easy feat. Yesterday I thought about him and I didn't have that tinge of ander attached to it. That was a first. In fact I really didn't feel anything. Today on the other hand, I thought about how this drop dead gorgeous girl came to stay with us right after we married. his brotehr arranged for it because she was touring the world. Well he bent overbackwards to impress this girl. We went up to our time share in Tahoe and he paid for her room (shared with us and separated into two room), meals and show. I was not drinking, he knew I was an alcoholic but went off with that tramp, leaving me bymyself and had a drink with her because he didn't ant her to feel like she was drinking alone. What? What about not drinking with me in support of me? So after that thought I got all pissed off at him again. I have these thoughts weekly and I am so sick and tired of having him tied to me constantly. I want to be done with him for good. I know I am better off with out him and all I ever wanted was for him to acknowledge his wrong doings but he never would. He always insisted that he wasn't a liar and that he did nothing wrong. I confronted him about his behavior with that girl and told him I was jealous. He slammed me up against the wall and told me married couples don't get jealous that there was something wrong with me. I drove to my dads house that night pissed off and went there to drink. Many years later he told me she gave him head that night. I don't know if he said that to piss me off or if it was true. For years he claimed to have never cheated on me. Oh I pray to God for the willingness to forgive him. Forgivenss does not mean that what he did was right, it means that I am giving God the solitary right to vengeance. I also know from somewhere in the bible it says that in order to be forgiven we must forgive and I want forgiveness for my sins. I also want to forgive myself and that I think is the hardest thing to do of all.
Anyway, I love this book. I also want to get the Secret. I think that is what it's called. I do a little bit of what it talks about by seeing myself as a graduate, as a nurse, as a good mother, as clean and sober. as a good wife, etc.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Get this
Uncle Solar has been talking to me a lot lately. In fact, I was the first and I really think, the only one he told about the mail order bride. He said he would talk to Baba around Easter, but since his final verdict to either get married or pass her on by, is still up in the air, I don't think he did. her name is Jean by the way and I saw a picture. She really is pretty and appears to have hair all the way down to her butt.
Any ways, I never would have thought any one would admire me and Peter's relationship, but apparently Uncle Solar does. He said in an email that he respects and admires what Peter and I have. He wants the same sort of relationship, a stay at home mom/wife. He even knows about our probs with sex but admires the fact that we haven't given up on each other.
Uncle Solar asked me to spend time with Jean to get a second opinion about her. I guess this woman claims that she wants to be a SAHM to HIS children. He told her, he does not want any more kids due to his age and the financial cost of having another child. I am going to hit her hard with those questions. I will ask her if she really has contemplated not having any children of her own. She is only 27. I don't know if her being so desperate to get out of poverty is influencing this decision. Perhaps she can't have kids, I don't know. All I know is that she is a devout Catholic and devout Catholics don't use birth control. She told Uncle Solar that when she arrives in America the first thing she wanted to do is go to church to thank God. I thought that was sweet. Uncle Solar said he is not a big fan of organized religion, so I wonder if they will clash in that area. I know Uncle Solar is the type that if he wantssomething so badly he will over look issues that later will become a huge problem. He did that with Carol and now look what he has gotten himself into.
Any ways, I never would have thought any one would admire me and Peter's relationship, but apparently Uncle Solar does. He said in an email that he respects and admires what Peter and I have. He wants the same sort of relationship, a stay at home mom/wife. He even knows about our probs with sex but admires the fact that we haven't given up on each other.
Uncle Solar asked me to spend time with Jean to get a second opinion about her. I guess this woman claims that she wants to be a SAHM to HIS children. He told her, he does not want any more kids due to his age and the financial cost of having another child. I am going to hit her hard with those questions. I will ask her if she really has contemplated not having any children of her own. She is only 27. I don't know if her being so desperate to get out of poverty is influencing this decision. Perhaps she can't have kids, I don't know. All I know is that she is a devout Catholic and devout Catholics don't use birth control. She told Uncle Solar that when she arrives in America the first thing she wanted to do is go to church to thank God. I thought that was sweet. Uncle Solar said he is not a big fan of organized religion, so I wonder if they will clash in that area. I know Uncle Solar is the type that if he wantssomething so badly he will over look issues that later will become a huge problem. He did that with Carol and now look what he has gotten himself into.
Whole latta news
Aiden started T-ball on Monday, we went to church on Easter at the Yuba City Church of the Nazarene, Aiden loved it, Uncle Solar is getting a mail order bride and she flew in from the Filippine's yesterday, I have a moch final and a math test tomorrow and I haven't studied yet. I think that sums it all up. Oh and I read in the paper yesterday that my ex aa sponser got a dui on Easter Sunday. I haven' talked to her yet. She hasn't logged into myspace since that day. I am hoping they already released her from Jail. Usually it is only an over night stay at the county jail, but who knows Yuba County may be different than Sac. Wow, my insurance finally went down after 7 years, because of an old dui. Oh shit and I got denied by blue shield for health insurance because of my arthritis. Fuckers.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
vomitting, Auntie Prozac, reading
Lesson learned this Sunday: Always check on Thursday to see how much reading/homework I actually have to do before I decide to put it off. I started my reading late Sun. It is about a 20 to 30 page (large pages) article on the Cultural Environments Facing Business. I am to read it and outline it, then study it for the upcoming mock final. Shit I started late.
Aiden began projectile vomiting Sat early am. He did not stop until late that eve. We did atleast 5 loads of wash through out the day because he would sometimes not get to the bowl in time, and well, you know spray the blankets and pillows and clothing with splashes of the contents of his tummy. He would get so thirsty, ask to drink luiquids, inevitably drink too much an then vomit it all back up. Poor little guy. To top it off we get a call from Uncle Solar saying he can't get a hold of Carol, that he needed to bring Seiji up because he had a flight to catch Sunday am for his job. We told him Aiden was terribly sick but he had no other choice I guess. What ever. So finally they arrived after midnight. WTF? Peter had to wait up for them and I thought that was terribly inconsiderate. He had even brought Quin too but took him back to Sacto. evidently because he was gone when I woke up.
So, Carol finally called Peter back around 11 am. and said she would come pick Seiji up. She didn't show until 3:00 pm. She came in, took a tour, and chatted for a while. Nothing much has changed about her. Her conversation was mostly consumed with griping about Uncle Solar for this or that and the fact that she is suing her ex-employer for discrimination. She apparently has a genetic medical condition that affects her immune system. Having to do with components missing from her blood. She said something about receiving 70% of her salary for the rest of her life. Although I have no idea who is footing that bill. Once a month she goes to the Cancer Center to get the missing components of blood put into her system from donated blood because that is the only place that does it. Did that make sense? It takes 4 hours and cause fatigue and dizziness. She says this disorder is the reason she is so tired all the time and the reason she apparently takes so long to heal from bruises, injuries or surgeries. She expressed the desire to see each other again and to get together once in a while. I didn't say no, but when she left, I just felt like that is not going to be a good idea. I am going to have to put up major boundaries if Iwas to ever go there again. She asked if she could call me to which I had replied yes. Upon leaving she gave me a hug and said she missed me terribly and started crying. I have missed our friendship, but I have not missed the negativity, nor have I missed the...I am at a loss for words to describe this. Um, the lack of follow thru, the lack of showing up, the lack of returning phone calls. I haven't missed any of that. I was wore out before she even left at the amount of info and complaints she was willing to discuss about Seiji's father. Eh, hem, stuck in the middle again. Besides we were told by uncle Solar, that she told him, that she didn't want Seiji staying at a meth addict's and alcoholic's house. I am sure this was a pay back to a letter he wrote her about not wanting Seiji to be watched by her pill addicted friend/coworker. Still to say that and then come into our home and act like a victim? Nerve. Here is a woman who, in my eyes, does not wish to take responsibilty for her own circumstances and mental state. Sure she has depression. It is what she does to ensure she stays in that constant state, so she can continue playing the victim that gets my feathers ruffled. I know because I used to be the same way. Sometimes I teter back on that fence again but it isn't cnfortable there any more so I don't stay there for very long. Thank God.
Enough said.
Aiden began projectile vomiting Sat early am. He did not stop until late that eve. We did atleast 5 loads of wash through out the day because he would sometimes not get to the bowl in time, and well, you know spray the blankets and pillows and clothing with splashes of the contents of his tummy. He would get so thirsty, ask to drink luiquids, inevitably drink too much an then vomit it all back up. Poor little guy. To top it off we get a call from Uncle Solar saying he can't get a hold of Carol, that he needed to bring Seiji up because he had a flight to catch Sunday am for his job. We told him Aiden was terribly sick but he had no other choice I guess. What ever. So finally they arrived after midnight. WTF? Peter had to wait up for them and I thought that was terribly inconsiderate. He had even brought Quin too but took him back to Sacto. evidently because he was gone when I woke up.
So, Carol finally called Peter back around 11 am. and said she would come pick Seiji up. She didn't show until 3:00 pm. She came in, took a tour, and chatted for a while. Nothing much has changed about her. Her conversation was mostly consumed with griping about Uncle Solar for this or that and the fact that she is suing her ex-employer for discrimination. She apparently has a genetic medical condition that affects her immune system. Having to do with components missing from her blood. She said something about receiving 70% of her salary for the rest of her life. Although I have no idea who is footing that bill. Once a month she goes to the Cancer Center to get the missing components of blood put into her system from donated blood because that is the only place that does it. Did that make sense? It takes 4 hours and cause fatigue and dizziness. She says this disorder is the reason she is so tired all the time and the reason she apparently takes so long to heal from bruises, injuries or surgeries. She expressed the desire to see each other again and to get together once in a while. I didn't say no, but when she left, I just felt like that is not going to be a good idea. I am going to have to put up major boundaries if Iwas to ever go there again. She asked if she could call me to which I had replied yes. Upon leaving she gave me a hug and said she missed me terribly and started crying. I have missed our friendship, but I have not missed the negativity, nor have I missed the...I am at a loss for words to describe this. Um, the lack of follow thru, the lack of showing up, the lack of returning phone calls. I haven't missed any of that. I was wore out before she even left at the amount of info and complaints she was willing to discuss about Seiji's father. Eh, hem, stuck in the middle again. Besides we were told by uncle Solar, that she told him, that she didn't want Seiji staying at a meth addict's and alcoholic's house. I am sure this was a pay back to a letter he wrote her about not wanting Seiji to be watched by her pill addicted friend/coworker. Still to say that and then come into our home and act like a victim? Nerve. Here is a woman who, in my eyes, does not wish to take responsibilty for her own circumstances and mental state. Sure she has depression. It is what she does to ensure she stays in that constant state, so she can continue playing the victim that gets my feathers ruffled. I know because I used to be the same way. Sometimes I teter back on that fence again but it isn't cnfortable there any more so I don't stay there for very long. Thank God.
Enough said.
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