Email I got this am :)))

Good morning sweetheart,

Hope you and Aiden have a great day. I would like to marry you soon. What do you think about that? Today is going to be challenging for me. Just trying to give it up to GOD and trust that it will be all good.

Love you........................Peter

I think we are pretty fortunate considering we have come full circle. We still don't have sex as often as I would like but things have improved markedly in that area. I am glad that I stuck it out for Aiden's sake and in return I am happy again. I hear about all the fighting his brother and auntie prozac do over their son and it just makes me grateful that we are still together.

His brother is still really hurt that she walked out on him and the bitterness carries over to shared custody of their son. I feel bad for Seiji who is stuck in the middle of all this and hearing name calling and swearing. Seiji appears to be undisciplined and therefore doesn't listen and obey what he is told. He bit my son over the weekend and I gave out to him harshly. I should have made him apologize but he can't talk still. There is something wrong with that. Aiden has been speaking clearly for a long long time now. We can't make out practically any of the words Seiji is saying. It's like his own little language. He was on the slower side of walking too so maybe it will just take him a while to communicate to. When he doesn't get his way he cries and does it a lot. Aiden does too but he understands what we are saying for the most part. For example if he wants ice cream and we say no not til after dinner he still is upset but he also knows that he will get ice cream after dinner. I am not certain Seiji has the comprehension that Aiden has too. When you talk to him sometimes he has this blank stare like huh? I told Peter Baba favors our son a lot. He doesn't see it but I told him a lot of what she has said about him that was negative. She likes Aiden because he does what he is told and says thank you, please and excuse me. We have instilled good manners from the very beginning. I like to think kids know a lot more than we give em credit for and I speak to him as if he is much older. I explain things to him so he has the big picture. Ofcourse he is still my baby boy and I probably baby him too much still but I am only going to get this once so I am appreciating every second of his babyhood.

The friggin asshole

Well I forgot to mention last week that when payday came around his boss withheld $1000.00 from his paycheck. The two of them went on a $700,000 sales call on Thursday and it looks like they have landed it so Peter asked for his $1000. His boss said he would give it to him on Friday. Frida rolled around and his boss never gave it to him, despite the fact that they were together at a meeting in the office. Peter didn't want to talk to his boss about it with everyone around so he is waiting until today. That friggin no competition contract he signed has him sorta bound to this guy too. Peter said if push came to shove he would work for a competitor but I am afraid of his asshole boss sueing us. $2000 a month less a month is a lot of damn money.

quilt

I have been wanting to get a quilt for our bed for the past year. The comforter set I bought when we first moved in I got off the net and when it came I was sadly disappointed. The pattern looked stupid and the material and labor cheap and thin. I had gone to Gottschalk's yesterday while Aiden was at daycare to scope out end of summer sale on clothes. No such luck so I browsed the small home section and they were having huge sales. I bought one pillow at 30% off and got the second one free, a light olive quilt with beautifl stitching and matching pillow shams at 50% off, and a creamer and sugar to match our crystal butter dish at 50% off. I am going back Sat to get the alternative down comforter for the winter. I had to ask Peter first about that because it would have made my purchase over $200.00 and he said go for it. Peter actually likes the quilt because it isn't all frilly and feminine. Because it is a solid color it actually is more masculine but because of the stitching it is feminine enough for me. I want to also get a cream colored accent pillow with flowers and stems that match the comforter. It is tied with a silk bow and is beautifully feminine. I still don't even sleep in that bed but I want Peter to be comfortable. I gave him the new extra firm pillow to try and he actually likes it too. He was using two old and flat pillows stacked on each other to sleep. Aiden doesn't like his medium pillow but wants my firm one instead so I am going back to get another extra firm for me. I personally don't care for the softness of the medium.

I am getting tired of not being able to post pictures. Our external hard drive is still screwed up and that is where I loaded picasa and hello. May have to just try it on the desk top. There are a ton of new pictures I would like to post so I am getting really mad at this point.

Made thai food for dinner tonight but ate alone because Peter was working late at the office. Aiden only sat at the table playing with chop sticks, a whisk and thongs, pretending to fish. he was not the least bit interested in food. I bought the thai food out of a box and damn it was good. There were rice noodles that were sweet and the sauce itself was a lot like kung pow chicken, sweet and spicy hot. I was lazy lazy today and still haven't taken a shower. I just brushed my hair, teeth and washed my face. I have not been sleeping well for the last week so it is catching up to me.

Now I don't know what is going on. I talked to Peter to see if he was going to be home by 5:30. He said no he was still at his brothers house who is refusing to come home with him. Uncle Solar is going on and on about how fucked up his life is and how everyone is out to fuck him. Peter said he is really out there and is wigging out yet won't leave his house. He says Solar is showing all the signs of over stress and depression with suicidal thoughts. Peter told him he doesn't feel comfortable leaving him there alone. So any ways I called my sponser to see if I could bring Aiden and we got our dates crossed. I wasn't even supposed to come tonight. She is doing H&I at the jail tonight. I can't wait til I start going into the jails or mental institutions. After that I called Jeff and when I said hello he knew it was me and sounded all pissed off so I immediately told him that Peter did not ask me to call that I called on my own. I told him why not come up and spend the night and I would take him to the dr in the am. I told him it can't hurt anything. He told me that he was right in the middle of talking to Peter so I let him go. I think he forgets that he was the one that called Peter in the first place and said I can't take it any more. That is a cry for help if I ever heard. Peter dropped everything and even brought his boss with him to uncle solar's. The business meeting they were in went bad anyway and they were asked to leave. Ouch!

Uncle Solar keeps flip flopping from I am going to see some one and get on medication to I can't leave my house and saying what am I going to do at your house. Peter told him well you can come up and relax for one thing. I have a feeling he wants to get drunk. He isn't an alcoholic but has been drinking a lot and heavily from what Peter has told me. Peter reminded him that all of the siblings have addictive personalities and that is like playing with fire. His sister is still on meth and we told her we would pay for her to go to clean and sober living and have a place for her dog but she says she isn't ready. She was at their dad's house over the weekend because the place where she lives has no air. It was obvious she was coming down because she was sleeping the entire day except to come out and say hi and that was it.

Just got a call from Peter saying that uncle solar is coming home with him because he doesn't want his brother alone. He had also sched an appt with our old dr in Sac. I had recommended he see this doc some time ago as he most likely would have sample antidepressants. Yesterday he had court and the judge ordered him to pay his ex (the woman I am no longer friends with because she is a flake and I got tired of her bitching about Uncle Solar) $5500 for his share of child care. Peter calls her a ruthless bitch for it. The way I see it is he is responsible for paying child care during his weeks but he should have said to her a while ago I will pay you when I can intead of trying to fight it and piss her off. Anyways he has been depressed for quite some time and it has progressively gotten worse. Bad enough that Peter is now concerned and it takes a lot I would say to make him concerned. Peter had made the appt for 8 am. I was like what!!! Why so early. Shit I have to get Aiden up and over to day care and leave over an hour early. He said he would call the dr office back and try to get an appt an hour later or so. Thank you!!! I hadn't planned dinner since I am heading to my sponsers. I thought maybe I would get out of cooking for a change. I am just going to get everything ready for him to steam a veggie and boil ravioli's. It is too hard to time my leaving and their arrival.

HOT

It was 107 yesterday. We broke the record for most 100 degree days in a row and it will be blown off the charts since there is no let up any time soon. It has been too hot to do anything but stay indoors.

I go for more shots today and am dropping Aiden off at daycare for a short while. He will not be happy. They had water play yesterday at 9:00 am. Today is movie and pj day. During the summer I don't put pj's on Aiden, just night time pull ups and a tank. Tonight I meet with my sponser. I can't cancel again.

Apparently my sponser already has a new man in her life. Perhaps this was lined up before her and her hubbie split a couple months ago. This guy has already moved in with her. He treats her foster (to be adopted) son like his own so that is good. She sounds really happy. Will know more when I get there. Her marriage involved clashing libidos like me and Peter. She finally had had enough and told her now ex that she wants a divorce. Sex was nonexistant.

Heat wave

We are having a big time heat wave. It is too hot to stay outside. Today it is suppose to reach 108F in our area. We are heading to Sac and have to bring the dog with us because we can't leave him outside or in the bathroom for that long. Not looking forward to going to grmadparents today for some reason. We are also visiting Peter's oldest boy as well. Have a great weekend.

Jerk

Just as expected his boss had something up his sleeve. Yesterday he told Peter he wants to readjust his salary and it is going down but he wouldn't say how much. So Peter and I are left hanging wondering if we can pay all the bills. Like I said we have ashit load of bills. We charged a lot. Peter did I should say because I disagreed with many purchases and he went ahead and did it any way. I told Peter I would go back to work. I can bring home atleast $40 grand a year which would help a lot. Maybe a bit less to begin with since I haven't worked in so long and don't know all the law changes. Peter won't find out until the weekend. He is pretty upset, like I have never seen him and pretty scared like I have never seen him. His face last night at dinner was just drawn and down. He said on the way home he is feeling like a failure to his family that he isn't doing what he is supposed to. I told him bull shit I know better and how hard he works. THEY pulled him out of sales to do repair work for over two months and now he is being penalized for doing what the mother fucker asked him to do. Bullshit he is a chiken shit boss if you ask me and a caniving little fuckwad. There I said it. I have thought that about his boss for YEARS now. Peter has been there for 4 years and built that company up by adding new products and services...ie, water proofing and specialized floor coverings like the one in our garage. Gotta go for now...shower

Stress

Peter made a decision today that he was "not going to worry, atleast try not to." He didn't sound very convincing over the phone though. He said he saw his boss at the office this am and he wasn't very cordial so again he doesn't know what is going on with him. Despite he will be going to inspect warranty jobs, repairs and doing sales calls today. I told Peter that sometimes not knowing is worse than knowing and I wonder why that is. He agreed but had no answer. Maybe because if you know, you can stop worrying and take action.

When Aiden is at school the house is so quiet I don't know what to do with myself. It is almost strange and often times I don't like being in my own head and that is exactly what being alone does. I'm not liking myself a whole lot these days and it is hard to be upbeat and chipper for my family. I am doing it but struggling with it. I don't think Peter has noticed so much because of his own worries. I got him a nice card yesterday that I wrote don't worry God has your back and so do I. I think it brightened his day and he said "huh, you really do like me."

It was 108 yesterday and it is supposed to be hot again today. The meeting hall has poor airconditioning so I don't think I will be going. Too hot and too smokey. I don't want to feel useless all day so I better think of something to do and get off my but and do it. Housecleaning gets old but it needs it so I may end up having to do that. Blah!

Worry worry worry

Peter's boss had him doing repair work instead of sales for several months. Now he says he kept Peter out too long and that they don't have enough work. Everyone is expecting Peter to instantaniously sell jobs and produce work. His boss had him sign a no compitition contract again. He had already signed one years ago. It basically states that if he went to work elsewhere that he would agree not to take his bosses business. That has Peter concerned that his boss has plans to get rid of him. He has not done anything wrong so the only thing we can speculate is that his boss can't afford to pay him. I recommended that he talk to his boss about it and he said that he doubted his boss would tell him the whole truth any ways. His boss isn't the greatest as far as integrity and honesty even I know that. So Peter is stressed out today and that in turn has me stressed out. I told him he could find work elsewhere and if the pay was less I could always go back to work so we could make ends meet. We could also have help from my dad til we got back on our feet. We have a shit load of bills we pay for now. Well over $4000 a month. I sure hope everything will work out.

No boating today

Peter had to go with out us because Aiden had a fever of 101.1 this am. I don't want to bring him out into 100 degree weather so Pete went with some co workers. We had originally invited his brother and his two kids. But his brother cancelled last night.....too depressed to go. Then after Peter invited other people the brother calls back and says he wans to go but then when he found out that me and Aiden weren't going he didn't want to go. Not sure what that is about. Maybe he just wanted the kids to be together but still it wouldn't have meant that they wouldn't enjoy themselves. We talked about giving him money again so when Peter talked to him he offered last night but the offer was declined. His brother is not keeping his head above water and he needs to do something, like get out from underneath the house or take a full time permanent job and see the kids on the weekends for a while. His brother is severly depressed and doesn't think clearly right now. We have all been talking to him, offering and ear, advise, etc. I am the only one if the family that he sends emails to and I think it is because there is no sibling rivalry there. I am pretty certain he is jealous of Peter but won't admit it.

Terriyaki sauce

I have sort of put it on the back burner for the rest of this week. Not sure how Peter wants to proceed. Right now he is under a lot of stress at work so he focus is there and not any where else. His boss had him resign a contract saying if he left the company he would "steal" any of his business. My first thought was that he is getting rid of Peter because he can't afford to pay him. I told Peter what I had worried about and now I made him worry and I didn't mean to. He said he thought about it for a sec but now that I brought it up to it has him concerned. He said I will never let that stop me from feeding my family and I will do whatever it takes. Such a noble man.

My all time favorite blogger, Dooce, has cancer and I was so saddened to read it on her blog this week. I sent an email today as I have in the past but I never know if she reads them or not. She gets bombarded every day with emails so she hasn't got the time to respond. I just wished her a speedy recovery and that they get all the cancer out.

It is too hot to be outside today and Aiden is nasaly again. He woke in a coughing fit last night and was congested and couldn't breath. It pisses me off because every time he comes home from daycare he is sick. I don't understand why his immune system doesn't fight this stuff off. My dad keeps saying that kids just get sick a lot and as they get older their bodies do start fighting.

On the fourth of July one of the kids must have spit a windermelon seed down the bathroom sink. The other day I went to use it and growing up the drain was a sprout so I pull on it and up came the seed attached to the bottom. I use water from that tap a few times a day and that must been enough to keep it alive and growing. It is the most bizzare things I have ever seen. I left it for Peter and he flipped out thinking it was coming all the way up from the ground some how.

I just got a call from his oldest sons girlfriend. We had made plans to have them come up the 22 and 23rd to stay with us. She said that Peter changed the date to 28th and 29th. It really pisses me off that I am constantly the fucking last person to know what is going on and he doesn't even ask me or include me in the planning. Not that changing the date won't work just that I feel he should involve me since I am more than just a bloody roommate!! Any ways they may cancel cause his family on his moms side are having a family reunion in San Fransisco and Jared and Andrew may want to go. I told her it wasn't like we had reservations any where so we could plan another time. It was polite enough of her to call first. We tolerate each other now. I still at times want to tell her when she is around my kid not to tell him what he can and can't do because it isn't her job. I vowed if it continued I would tell her politely instead of keeping it all bottled in and then exploding like I did last year.

I am still plugging away on my 4th step. My character defects are glaring and I feel very raw if that makes any sense. I am supposed to meet with my sponser tonight and I really don't feel like it. I wrote her an email any ways and told her that if Peter comes home in time I can still go over to her house. I haven't been calling her like I am supposed to. I feel like I am a burden to her right now because she is going through a divorce and still getting to know her son and her role as a mom which will end up being a single mom role when her husband moves out. I guess that won't be for a while though. We haven't seen each other for a while because someone on one side or the other was sick, Aiden, her and me all at different times. I should have confirmed our meeting one way or the other and now I am beating myself up over not being responsible. I am a work in progress so I have to remember progress not perfection. Really who in the world wants to examine themselves and every horrible thing they ever did and what the motive was behind it then have to tell another person? UM, I suppose practicing catholics do but as a general rule us alcoholics have gotten into alot more trouble than the average person, ie. fist fights, jail, institutions, divorce, getting fired, running down the street naked. Yes I did that once in a black out. I never wanted to see the neighbors again for as long as I lived.

Off to the dentis today

It is off to the dentist for Aiden. We haven't found one in Yuba so I am driving an hour and 15 minutes to Sac to go to his dentist. What a drag but I want his teeth checked out and cleaned. I may stop in at Ojiichan and Baba's and surpirse them. I bet they would like that a lot. I never do that any more since we don't live in town. So unless they come up during the week, they only see him pretty much on alternating weekends or less. I am sure they are doting over their beautiful new grandson though. Man he is just a gorgeous baby. We got a picture in the mail the other day. Peter's youngest brother and his wife just had their 3rd child. She is my age or so. He is a big eater too. She nursed him a lot on Fathers day when we first got to see him. Still made me wish I could have nursed Aiden instead of supplementing half with formula. What is, is what is I guess. I stop questioning why and what these days and I am a lot more peaceful these day. Sort of like acceptance I suppose and I really have come to the conclusion that Peter and I are meant for each other. We have a cooperation with one another. It makes living together possible. I am not an easy person to be with but he seems to do just fine as long as I am clean and sober.

Special boy

I have been reading a story about a boy named Derek that has cancer and his mother's journey taking care of him and her family in the midst of this crisis in the Sac Bee. It was a four part story that ended today. Here is the first of the four parts, the other three can be read only by registering for the online newspaper. I wish you all could read it. I cried every time I read a new part. The mother had unfathomable (is that a word?) courage. More than I ever had when my mother was dying. I think it was good to write her story because too many people don't understand what happens. I certainly didn't at the time but looking back I now understand the whole dying process. Cyndie went through more than any mother should ever have to endure. I feel grateful though that I have a healthy son and pray that I continue to have a healthy son. You just never know when God wants your loved ones home.

Snag

This whole business thing appeared to be pretty easy til I hit the County Health Dept today and found out that we can not actually make our teriyaki sauce at our home. We have to make it an approved kitchen. I was given a list of preapproved sites that rent their kitchen out. I had hoped to work out of the home. Perhaps we can rent the kitchen for the days Aiden is in daycare. Peter told me not to get discouraged and to check into the cost. I picked up the paper work to file an application for a business license and a permit to sell from our home (zoning clearance) I still need to contact the Board of Equalization and the State Health Dept. Will leave that for tomorrow. I told Peter I want to do this project legally because if we didn't we would always be limited in our ability to make our business grow. Who knows we may eventually sell our product in stores. What matters most right now though is trying and believing in our product. I wouldn't even consider doing this if the teriyaki sauce was just mediocre. I truly have not tasted a better sauce and anyone that has tried it hasn't tasted anything better either. I want to be able to sell the same quality to people with out preservatives or anything to alter the flavor which is why we are leaning toward canning our sauce. There is so much still to be rearched!!! Whew. I thought this was going to be abit easier but it isn't. Peter is more excited about it now that I am. I knew it wouldn't take him long to get on board. He is in sales and can sell ice to an eskimo so he will be great at selling our sauce.

Aiden has not been wanting a nap lately and it is making for a very difficult late afternoon/evening. He becomes uncooperative, throws temper tantrums and refuses to go to bed. He tried to even bite me last night but I stopped him mid way and planted his butt in the naughty chair. He is funny these days. He tells me I am potty trained and that I get a sticker!! Instead of saying Holy cow or good gracious he says holy gracious and I have no idea whre he got that from. He is getting better with counting and his alphabet. He knows all his colors and all his shapes. We were looking at a childrens book with animal character's in different uniforms to correspond with their occupation. The housekeeper was pushing a vacuum and Aiden says that's you mommy!! He has also started telling us off. If he doesn't like something we tell him to do or what we say he calls us piggy or poe and I am not sure what poe means but if you say it back to him he screams I am not a poe and then cries hysterically so to him it must mean a really bad word. Speaking of I have to go get him now.

Good weekend

All in all we had a good weekend. We thought the boat was fixed and took it back to the lake on Sat. We were out there no longer than 15 minutes before it started to over heat. So Peter is taking it back in a third time to the shop to have it fixed. If that doesn't do it he is parking it back on his bosses property for good and let someone else deal with it. Aiden loved it though. Daddy went a little to fast for the both of us at one point but slowed down when he saw how upset Aiden was. We ended up swimming in the lake again that afternoon then came home and did chores. Sunday was spent shopping and doing laundry. Peter cooked a wonderful spaghetti dinner. I have saved his sauce and froze it for those times we come home late and want a quick dinner.

We are still in the process of researching our Teriyaki sauce. We are going to the board of Equalization to get a business license and a whole sale license. I am also contacting the USDA to determine if our product has to go through inspection to to meet their standards. It appears the biggest issue is the Ph balance It can't have too high or too low acidity. From there maybe they can helps us determine shelf life opened and unopened and labeling information required by law.

I talked to my dads girl friend last night about the sauce. She brought it up by saying the batch we sent home with dad was terrific and she said we should sell it. Ha I told her we were already thinking about it and are in the process of doing to th foot work. Dad brought up an interesting point about what if someone believes we copied their recipe. I can't imagine since Peter's recipe is so uniquely his own. It is a bit more sweet and spicy than most which is why it gives meat such a fantastic flavor and locks in moisture. I have gotten Peter a little more excited about it and he will be passing out sample size jars with an order form to everyone he runs into through work. He is after all a salesman and is really good at it. He should be for making a six figure salary!!

Doing my homework

I have researched all kinds of stuff from UPS, Pay pal, jars, bottles, bulk prices of ingredients, canning, preservatives, etc. I have presented the majority of it to Peter. Now all I have to do is make a batch, determine the cost to make it per bottle then determine my profit margin. As an instentive to buy we agreed to offer the first 10 customers one free jar of the sauce in a addition to their purchase order. Since my website never gets many hits I was also considering advertsing on the more popular blogs like Dooce. Peter was not keen on that idea and wanted to soley advertise on our website at first. All in all I want to give this a try. If nothing else it will be a learning experience and some people will get to enjoy fantastic teriyaki sauce.

Starting a business - Teriyaki

I am pretty excited. I have told Peter all along that he could sell his home made teriyaki sauce. It is his mother's family recipe and she was from Kobe, Japan. When ever he has made this sauce and used it for sweet meat balls, as a marinade for meat, kabobs or as a sauce over rice everyone raves about it and wants a batch to use at home. I told Peter that we ought to get a business license so we can purchase ingredients at wholesale price and I could start canning it and marketing it over the internet. The two most difficult parts would be getting people to initially try it, once they did we would have repeat customers and customers from their family and friends. The next most disfficult part would be how to figure out shipping costs. I know the least expensive way is UPS but I am not sure how they calculate it so I will have to contact UPS for that. We really need to whole sale price for the rice wine that goes into it. It is very expensive retail at the store. Everything else we can get at Sams club for a low price. There is no way this recipe can be imitated or duplicated because it is his own special recipe that makes it unique. Peter isn't as gung ho as I am but I am excited to learn how to make it, design labels and canning it. I wouldn't even mind running a booth at fairs and shows. I am the worst sales person ever but it is that good so it wold sell itself through sampling!! I am not certain how much we should charge for the first batch to get a head start. I do know I want to start off selling 16 oz canning jars. I think that is a good size for everyones, marinated, basting, bbq, stirfry sauce needs. I would also be willing to send off cooking ideas and recipes along with the orders. Many businesses start off in their own kitchens. Most bussiness' fail with in the first year but we won't know until we try.

Our external hard drive where we load and store our pictures is down so I can't post any of the new hundreds of photos I have taken:(. I am really bumed about that and am having withdrawals over that.

Speaking of withdrawals, I haven't had any for months and on the 14th I will have 6 months clean and sober. WOOOT Woo Hoo! Fuckin A right and I feel Gooood da na na na nah! bum, bum bum, bumph!! The last time I drank was 9 months ago!! What a miracle. I have so much support from my family both on Peter's side and mine.

We had a grand 4th of July party yesterday thrown together at the last minute. Jared and his fiance, her sister, brother and father, Andrew, Uncle Solar and cousin Quin, and my dad. We made rice and shishkabobs, steak marinated in Peter's home made terriyaki sauce and bbq chicken. I told Peter he could sell his sauce it so freaking good. Way better than store bought terriyaki sauce and way better than restaurants. He told me to research on how to mass produce and market. i have no clue where to start but I know that he could make a fortune selling this stuff, i kid you not. I am guessing the best place to start would be some where like the State Fair and set up a booth with taste samples. I would even be willing to bottle it up real nicely with Japanese linens and ribbon. His brother would be the person to talk to about that so i will send him another email today. I am not certain if we have to get a license to distribute. For any one that would like a sample I can figure out how to ship it and keep it fresh. Since there are no preservatives it would need to be used fairly quickly unless we find a way to preserve it??? Any way we had so many firworks between all of us that it lasted for 2 and half hours. The best home show I have ever seen. We also had big ones shot over the top of our house. I am pretty certain they were illegal ones. I was scared one would come through the window. Poor Buzz was scared out of his wits so I had to put him in his kennel in the back yard. He wanted me to hold him but I was the one taking pictures and tending to Aiden who was alos a little frightened after the sparkler sparks dropped on his toe and burned him. We stayed in the back of Papa's SUV with the hatch open. he sat on the golf clubs and played with the balls and flash light while we watched. At the very end we had a power struggle over the camera nad I finally had to put him down. I think everyone had a good time. For extra special show of appreciation and love I set off some of Peter's fireworks when Aiden went to bed. He liked it very much!!

Decided to start over

It has been hard not journaling via blog. My BF read my blog, read some personal stuff and got mad at me. So I deleted the entire thing. No warning, no nothing. I had asked him before not to read it and he said since I let the entire world read it he should be able to also. I told him no one close to me knows about it and the ones that do read it don't know me. In any case he doesn't know about this one and it I can blog with out him knowing that suits me fine. I just know I can't share personal stuff because he will read it. Too bad I can't trust him.

We were supposed to go boating tomorrow since we borrowed Shrek's boss' boat but he can't get it fixed and know repair shops were open when he called. Looks like we are SOL til Monday. I am a bit nervous about taking our son but we won't know how he does until we try.